Ask. Seek. Knock.
Behind The Lyrics of “Quantum Resolution” album, By Jeff Arwadi
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Chapter I: Introduction (excerpted)
It was around the middle of the year 2016 when my inner-self began to shift and I recognized myself being awakened from the many years of slumber, but not until undergoing some extended period of discontentment, emptiness and spiritual agitation (or what many call it as “the dark night of the soul”), where I found myself struggling immensely deep within.
So many questions lingered in my mind, mostly starting with “why” and “how”, questions about my existence, about the world, the universe, the purpose of this life, etc. and at one point they culminated in the so-called ego death, where I felt completely “crushed” and lost my sense of willpower, as I could feel my gut hitting the rock-bottom. I surrendered myself and admitted a complete defeat, because I no longer had any energy left to keep taking control of my life. I could not understand and see the purpose in handling this so-called “life” that felt way too fake/synthetic, and in many instances too evil to be considered as “worth living”. Everything seemed to be just a game of survival. A sinister and very dark game indeed. I could no longer move on in this status quo.
Not too long after my complete surrender, I started to experience a series of strange synchronicity; the term in which I was already quite familiar (learned a bit of C.G. Jung back in the University, and yes, also from The Police album), but never knew I could ever experience that myself. This series of synchronistic events led me to make some bold decisions, including selling my home, paid-off debts, left a full-time job, and moved to another city (which I previously had no idea where exactly), all happened within the same year: 2016.
The only guidance was the subtle signs interpreted from the synchronicity. People may argue that signs can be dismissed as coincidences, but what really is a coincidence? There’s no such thing as coincidence. If life is merely a coincidence and I was born as a result of coincidence – only to experience series traumatic events and failures with the aim just to survive by being selfish in a rat-race, then it is completely meaningless. In the bottom of my heart, I strongly felt that it wasn’t that life itself is meaningless, but I wasn’t just able to find that meaning of life which is somehow concealed.
Unaware at first, after some months of getting weird experiences and having strange physical symptoms, I then realized this is what people call as Spiritual Awakening. But it was far from “the trip of wonder and awe” like the effects of DMT, ayahuasca, or certain mushrooms, but instead, I began to feel negative energy from people and environment. I lost some friends (and even relatives) as they backed away for no obvious reason. I could no longer eat most meat as my stomach rejects them, and I started to become embarrassingly more and more emotional. My ears started to hear annoying high-pitched ringing sounds. I regularly wake up around 2 or 3 AM for no reason, and often see repeating numbers on the digital clock, sometimes multiple times a day.
There are many other symptoms, but the huge part of this shift is when I’ve received continuous revelations regarding who we are and where we are. Basically, the knowledge of the universe, the hidden or suppressed history of the Earth, our species and humanity, the control-system of the world, and how ancient civilizations and empires came about, far beyond what is told officially in normal education, tradition and religion because they are being suppressed and twisted by the control-system. At some point, the revelations of this new knowledge caught me off-guard and I freaked out, literally, because many of them contradict my previous beliefs that I’ve got from dogma and propaganda since childhood. It took courage to “deprogram” my old mindset, but at the same time these new understandings have given me some form of rest or closure from the many years of agitation, because it is the first time everything starts to come together and make sense.
I then started to buy many books (this alone freaked my wife out as I bought more books in one year than the previous 10 years combined), started to listen/watch many interviews, lectures and speeches on YouTube, and found many individuals from different kinds of expertise (whether they’re investigative journalists, spiritual mentors, theoretical physicists, mystics, philosophers, psychologists, religious scholars, historians, etc.) whom I now regard them as my teachers because they give many insights in order to connect the dots, even though I may not agree in some of their views.
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